Well, I don't suppose we had it as bad as you as the baby just didn't take to developing and was gone after a month or two. In the end we did manage to have a child, though a couple of months later one of our cats died. Anyways lets try keep more positive.
Plans...well my partner is away nearly a week at the end of april and there's a refuse collection the weekend before and the weekend after she is away, the perfect time to bag and bin myself. Planning on including some carrots, maybe a cucumber, bananas etc for insertion fun while in there. Hoping to get some heavier duty 300litre bags for it (240 despite being the size of our bin which I fit in easily, is not a size of bag that I fit in well and can tie).
In fact tying up the bag when inside is rather an annoying issue, previously I could tie the four corners in a knot but lately they don't seem to be tall enough to have an opening one can tie. I've been trying to figure out if there's a way to make a pull string closing bag, perhaps by folding the rim of the bag over slightly, tucking a string through that, taping down the fold round to an open point where the string can come out from both sides and can be pulled then to close the top of the bag and tied (allowing control of how wide the bag opening is to make sure there is plenty of air available.
Most of the rubbish I include is leftover food/packaging and stuff and I rarely put in anything I can get ill from. As I will have time and hopefully an amount of money to spend, I plan on buying a fair amount of cheap pasta which buffs out the bag a lot, some cheap sauces to cook into it, and I'll check reduced sections in the supermarkets to see what else I can include, I always feel like the bags don't have enough stuff in them, it just feels like me with a small amount of rubbish in the bag, which is less fun.
But where does the jinx come in? I may have to look after my partners younger brother while she and her mum are away if his plans to stay elsewhere fall through, in which case I will have to fantasize over what might have been instead of experiencing it.
I am sorry for your loss also.
Thanks,
Skele