Took quite a while to get here, but I got here finally!
I would start by saying "fond memories", but I never went through any form of motorbike phase, but the sense of this time and the combined tininess and usefulness of these bikes is quite clear.
The past of the experience with Ken, and just not talking about it, and how it now seems crazy not to have talked about the feelings, this does make me smile. The difference, the gulf really, between adult you and teenage you
Communicating what people are feeling, thinking, wanting and desiring... it is so easy to suggest that this is somehow a simple thing to do, but my experiences over the years suggest it is anything but! So, combine that with the fact that so much of this was very new to all of you, at that age, just a couple of years ago, and its no wonder.
Still, I do confess, the mental image of you snuggled in so close and tight against the other boys and riding off, it does have a certain power doesn't it?
Oh dear, such a terrible fantasy to endure, multiple big strong biker men making off with you and using you like that... you poor thing! Yep, I nearly wrote that with a straight face
But I do agree, who ever said that a fantasy had to be logical, or even make that much sense to achieve its desired result? I do like ideas that have a degree of internal consistency, but that's not quite the same thing.
There is an interesting question of how many secrets were shared, and how much your interactions gave away, but I suspect, on the basis of males generally lacking emotional intelligence compared to women, that secrets were not being given away by how people interacted together. Still, the idea that borrowing a bike and borrowing a girlfriend being very interwoven does bring up certain thoughts and almost opens certain doors... *smirk*
Reading about your thoughts on the drive to look at the bike, what really strikes me is the general maturity of your thoughts here. Yes, perhaps you want "everything", but you have a very clear sense of some of the risks, and of the need to preserve what matters and what you have, which feels really important to me! This is a complex situation, an unclear one, and not wanting to bring it up the wrong way and make a mess is a very real reason for not talking about it. Not really wise, but very understandable
At the same time, it also puts me in mind, in a way, of some of the "teenage" thinking you are exploring in the summer of dares. Really interesting to consider both pieces of writing in parallel
Cutting your boyfriend off to get him to agree to play with your toy, you are such a naughty woman at times! It warms my heart *evil smirk*
You and Ken being "paired" up like this by the adults does make me smile, yet at the same time your points, both about the power of adult "approval" and never contradicting your hosts all make a lot of sense, and add weight to this situation and setting.
Your boyfriend raising the question of you and Ken being pushed together, I actually find I need to sidetrack at your comment that his original plan on the camping trip had definitely been a threesome, simply because while this is a very common fantasy, males seem so universally focused on one male, two females for a threesome. Also though, so many of his plans and actions seemed designed to push you and Ken together without him coming between you, a sense that is reinforced here with his enjoyment of seeing you ride off with someone else on their bike. Just a perspective though, not to speak for him or you
Back to my thought though, building on your "adult approval", I am struck by the thought of your boyfriend seeing the "adults" "forcing" or "making" you pair off with Ken, achieving something he is interest in, while none of you three have a say in the matter, thus absolving all three of you of responsibility / control. Perhaps reading to much into this, but the thought did suddenly strike me rather clearly.
OK... sometimes I need to read ahead before commenting
boyfriend asking how far the adults will push things... oh my... the word "hint" really doesn't do this justice! And just dropped into a conversation that is happening past you... oooh, tingles, almost a conversation you are present for but have no say in... oooh, I like those tingles!
OH MY! Offering you up to go alone with Ken on a rather long trip... I have been accused of not getting hints on occasion, OK, it's been stated I am fundamentally incapable of getting hints of any sort, and even I am seeing that something is going on here! It does beg the question of what ends up going through your mind in the light of all of this, but it does seem that his views on you and Ken are now quite clear, even as he is clearly building a future with you, as I feel is right and proper! I have views, so there
Very interesting set of context on the adults, and what they might just allow. Then the whole lost bet means no control... that is SO obvious when you say it, yet for all of that a concept that I am not really that familiar with... yet it does serve exactly the same sort of role as a justification for what then happens... OOH, I am getting all sorts of positive feelings about where this might be going... helped of course by your hints along the way
Well... apparently the conversation about what happened and how people feel has now just happened... in the sense of "please, I want LOADS more, and more extreme, here is my girlfriend, gift wrapped and on a platter, please take her away for the weekend". Did NOT see that coming like that, but it does fit with my memories of the camping trip, and finally things are more out in the open. You playing coy while trying, somehow, to tell everyone you are screaming YES does make me smile.
At the same time I cannot help feeling that Ken being so very cautious, wary and double, triple checking is actually exactly how a male should respond here, well, any male who is a decent person anyway. Let me guess, I have strange standards
Of course, now there is the issue of conveying to Ken your desire, almost need, for him to be all dominant and forceful and tying you up... plus no camping equipment, making all of this almost a moot point, except that I am sure it's not really a moot point, somehow.
And that's the end of part 1. There is quite a bit of emotional context here, which I think is really important, since it tells us so much about the people, sets the stage, and helps to make sense of all of this. Then of course you go and end the part with a bloody massive hinting cliff hanger! The advantage to running behind on posts is that hopefully all the parts are now posted.
Part 2 now, and it is a little odd how your partner is behaving. Almost, as you note, as if he is ignoring your wishes and trying to push you and Ken into sleeping in the same room together. Hopefully not, since your logic and points are sound, but teenagers... we will see. I certainly would not be surprised to find that he is conspiring with the adults to push you and Ken together more firmly.
Well you put up a good fight on the bike ride
Not the strongest resistance you could have gone with, but polite, respectful, and now you have clearly been forced into this situation, without any say or way to back out. Plus your boyfriend has lost his bet, things are coming along rather nicely I see *smirk*
I do like the plan that the Aunt has "forced" onto you, so natural and reasonable on the surface, hardly anything that you could reasonably complain about or object to, excellent work!
The bike ride and the sunset, very romantic. Yes, you are being "naughty" in being so in the moment with Ken, but given how hard your boyfriend has pushed for this, and your history, the moment, and your age, what else are we to expect?
At the restaurant, that is a fun detail, the look Uncle gave Aunt when your boyfriend is sent to get the brush. Then again Aunt is the one who spoke to him, so perhaps she has a better handle on what is going on. Uncle certainly didn't seem against pushing the two of you together earlier on.
Interesting comment about there being reasons for Aunt's behaviour. As for why you went along with this so comfortably, and now question how fair and reasonable that behaviour was, looking in from the outside I am very much left with the feeling and the mental model of this being a negotiated play scene in the BDSM sense. This is a gross simplification of the emotional complexities, but your behaviour is completely in line with the very clear requests that your boyfriend has made directly of Ken, and also of you and Ken as a pair. He has asked for Ken to be a jerk, to be harsh and unfair and to push and punish him. Again, from the outside, what matters to my mind isn't if you are cruel to your boyfriend during the scene / the weekend, but how you are with him afterwards and in your more general life. Yes, you are clearly controlling and demanding, you have said so quite clearly, but also loving, concerned, and are working hard to build a life and future together. Plus you both seem very much on the same page. So, so far, I don't see or feel and issue with all of this.
Your boyfriend sent to get your pocketbook, and your comment about morally convenient thoughts soothing your conscience. I certainly don't have a full answer here, but I do rather strongly hold the view that at some point you and your boyfriend / future husband have to accept that if this is something that he enjoys, wants, and has actually quite clearly asked for, to be pushed to one side so that you have a very fulfilling experience with Ken, then there is nothing wrong with accepting this, and accepting your role in his treatment. That isn't to say I feel you should completely dismiss his feelings and reactions, but sometimes you need to live in the moment and enjoy what he is pushing you to enjoy and experience
OK, a few lines later you get there yourself. Sometimes commenting as I read doesn't work as well at I think it should
Now, the other thought going on here, the adults brought your pocketbook along with them, how much more pre-planning is at work here I do wonder...
Well, that was quite the moment on the bike ride up the mountain!!!
That is a very useful downstairs area, ideal given your experiences on the bike. Looking ahead and wondering, why is your boyfriend downstairs? Just waiting up, or sleeping down here, away from the "grown ups", as in 4 grown ups in 2 couples, and him? Or am I just reaching? Find out soon.
Well, a middle ground, and it does look like alcohol was used to help keep your future husband out of the way... the adults really are playing for keeps here aren't they!!
Well, quite the emotional roller coaster for you! The sense of youth, and being SO out of your depth really shines through, but the flashes of an adult looking back just add so much depth and emotion to all of this, it really does make for some very good, and very sexy writing
Onto part 3
I am almost tempted to say that you are overthinking some of this, with all of the emotions and thoughts to process at the start of part 3, but there are a lot of unresolved points and issues at work here, so it's hard to actually make that point.
And Aunt is still firmly, if perhaps subtly, pushing you and Ken together, bless her
There really is a building "tension", if that's the right word, between you and Ken. There is definitely a head of steam building up, but then again, your to be husband has been very clear in pushing the two of you together, and Ken is doing all the right things to make a good impression on you!
And here goes my complete ignorance of motor bikes, I had no idea, until it came up, that the P seat was not a standard feature of the bike, and that the bike had been modified to be like that. That actually goes quite a way to explain Aunt's teasing delight at the seat's name, and sending the two of you off together for a ride...!
The news of Uncle investing the bike cash is quite the surprise, but just adds a lot of emotional depth to the family and the people involved here. For all of that, I still think that making sure that Ken paid the full price up front was right and proper, partly for the simple reason that it made sure that he would (we hope) properly appreciate and respect a powerful, and also - lets be fair, dangerous piece of machinery!
Playful giggles, good to see you seeing the promise of those attachment points in the back of the truck, and the reminders of that rope! So tempted to say "naughty girl", but its woman, not girl, and you are lovely just as you are
The party, the comment at the start about setting the scene for the next part makes a lot more sense now. Poor Ken really does seem to be unlucky in love. But also the contrast between him drowning his sorrows and your future husband standing by and watching over you is quite clear. Having said that, you are in an "official" relationship with one of these two, recognised by all, while Ken has yet again failed to find his own woman.
As for the massively drunken antics in the back of the truck, well, massively drunk! But it does seem that a seed was sown...
And it turns out, so much for the "all the parts will be there since it took a while"...
Maybe calling you naughty isn't so wrong after all... *stern expression*
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