Part 4 thoughts arrive, in all their violent glory
Thinking that maybe I should go back and re-read at least the last part before reading and commenting as I go, but I want to know what happens next, so lets see how well I remember everything off the top of my head
What could possibly go wrong?
OK, clearly picking up right in the middle, back a part, I need to remember more clearly exactly where we are...
Better, now where were we...
Well yes, one hell of a pair of shocks. The apparently stunned reaction at getting rid of the male clothing almost seems odd, especially given what has just happened. Apparently our maid really isn't on the same page as everyone else, about how serious all of this is, and how seriously it is being taken.
As for who sells themselves into slavery like that, another answer that comes to mind is the comment about lobsters and boiling water, where the situation kept moving forward, but in very small steps, so it was far to late before the maid worked out all of what was happening and where it was taking her. Then again, we would never have started down this road, or travelled so very far, if there wasn't already a large and clearly strong desire to do so on our maid's part. Definitely a case of very different world views and sets of desires at work here!
Well, the words etched into the chastity device say it all! And since organising all of this was originally put firmly onto the maid to do, it is reasonable to conclude that she herself wanted this etched onto her chastity device, as if the device its self was not a clear enough sign of the way things were going here! The ongoing rage and anger on the part of Jackie though... there are some serious emotional issues at work here! It speaks heavily to the depth and importance of the lies and deception that she feels victimised by! I am also thinking that the ready acceptance and support by Jim will be helping, since this will be confirming and "normalising" her anger and feelings of how the maid needs to be treated, given the crimes that were perpetuated.
My thought is that of course Jim would have used his belt. An empty threat of physical punishment just makes no sense at this point, and heaven forbid, if that was discovered to be an empty threat, it would have had very serious repercussions.
Jackie though really does need to find a way to explain and convey to her "husband" (by situation if not law) what she wants and desires from him, since he isn't going to be certain otherwise. His history with Sheila speaks to a man wary of pushing for to much control or authority over his woman.
Now where are all of Jackie's doubts and worries coming from? In a sense I know and can see, but this seems a very serious set of worries about her future with Jim, especially when we have plenty of evidence showing that you are what he wants and desires in a woman, and are very well suited to provide the submissive and loving woman he desires. Or is this a form of guilt over the handling of your maid, coming out in this form? Or just natural worries and concerns that what you now have is to good to be true?
OK, I didn't see that coming, but suddenly I have a serious desire to pin Jackie down and slap her silly. Gently and respectfully at first, but more firmly if required, to get through to her! Your logic is based on the theory that Jim wants the powerful and equal woman in his life, that he wants to share control with someone who simply isn't interested in giving up control to him. Yes, Sheila has a lot to offer in many spheres of life, but we have ample history and evidence to tell us that in some VERY important aspects Jim and Sheila simply aren't that compatible.
It is not your social standing and business empire that you are bringing to the table here, but a whole host of other, perhaps less material, but no less important and crucial elements!
Then again, this is showing Jackie as very human and vulnerable, not a simple silhouette of a character, which is important, even as it makes me want to slap some sense and understanding into her
*rolls eyes* maybe you volunteered to be the maid to help show Jim the most important point here, that you are clearly not communicating clearly via other methods, that you are looking for and are eager for him to take a more controlling and dominant role in his relationship with you?! Surely this is the whole point of the exercise!
FINALLY! Letting Jim know more clearly what it is that you want and need here, with all of this!
Of course Jim cannot read your mind, and as I have already noted, his history has pushed him away from seeing and accepting the very submission you are yearning to offer and give him.
OK, so Jim is explaining why he wants and needs to be so careful and cautious, and Jackie NEEDS A BLOODY SLAP! Telling him he won't mess it up as a flat fact, I simply cannot see him thinking of feeling that way about this.
Now this is an interesting question, why does being female make the maid weak. I would point out that in a lot of ways this is the wrong question. The maid is weak because of her position, roll and lack of authority. The forced sex change is a factor here, but it isn't being female that makes her weak. Jackie really is a bit of a mess at the moment, which just makes Jim refusing to rush anything here all the more sensible and correct, he doesn't want to spoil what he is building with Jackie after all!
The reaction to the old male clothes disappearing is well done, since it is a powerfully symbolic moment, on top of the practical effects. As for Jim ordering Jackie to help the maid, my first thought is that it is simple practicality, someone has to help after all. Plus you (Jackie) just finished telling Jack you would be fine with any orders or instructions. Perhaps not quite so fine with any and all orders or instructions though
Again, the sudden urge to slap Jackie... I am starting to wonder if I am just having an overly aggressive day, or if this really is being prompted by her. How can you comment on the lack of hints and clues from your maid about her desire to live a female life when, at least as far as we can tell, you are doing nearly as poorly at explaining your wishes, desires and needs to Jim? It is one thing to want something and something very different to clearly and properly articulate that desire, isn't it?
As for the maid coming between you, are you perhaps ignoring or just unaware of the work and management required to get the new maid's life up and running? Once mostly done perhaps nice and straight forward, but its no small undertaking getting it to that point! A task that Jim has taken on and accepted without complaint and without shirking his duties.
See, I got through an entire paragraph without wanting to slap someone, I am getting better!
Seeing the dress up, things seem to be settling a bit. An ongoing and serious lack of empathy, but the history explains this. Nice how casual Jackie is about getting her friend in to do the hair styling, seemingly unaware that this is going to feel like another major milestone to the maid, another serious step in her transformation, plus introducing her clearly, in her new role, to someone she presumably knew in her old life.
The degree of shrinkage of the maids genitals suggests something is going on, this suggests chemical adjustment to my mind, this doesn't seem like the sort of change that would just naturally happen, even with the serious change in the social situation. But off the top of my head I don't recall any discussion of this taking place. I assume the answer will become clear with time. Still, I somehow expected this to illicit a bit more curiosity, but then again, Jackie really is strongly motivated to keep everything about her maid at arms length, and the shrinkage does fit with her feelings and thoughts here.
I do enjoy what we see of Kathie's reaction, I am left with the feeling of giggling embarrassment giving way to solving the professional challenge in front of her
At this point you having a double standard regarding your maid's sex life is just an expression of your complete disinterest in your maid as a sexual being. Or I might just be short cutting the thought process here *shrug*
Ah, so maid didn't know friend from before, that removes that variable. No female name, well, as you say, it had never come up before, but again, a clear reminder of how having the maid underfoot all the time is very much a reminder of what was before, so a clear desire to address this somehow. But the practical then come to the fore.
Almost tempted to argue that getting the maid to visit and help someone else is moving into Jim's territory, of controlling the maid, but the situation really was to perfect and handed to you on a plate to ignore.
Yep, definitely some awareness of what you are dropping on your maid by offering her up and sending her out like this, but of course you aren't bothered by this. But at least some awareness of some of the lines being crossed, which is important. And explaining this as a trial run for a business explains the idea quite clearly and nicely.
No maid in the house, finally doing a much better job of showing Jim what you want and desire from him... its interesting to see how much of a damper the maid has been being on your budding relationship, no real surprise, but interesting to see it spelled out and recognised more clearly.
As for finally coming clean with Jim about what happened with Sheila, about time, even if you are risking some clear displeasure here!
Well, looks like you have managed to unlock the forceful and taking man that you have been looking for! Interesting how much more demanding and forceful than you have ever seen before, or expected, he is. Perhaps in time you will think back on this and remember your comment that he is free to take and do what he wants. This also puts the untenable situation with Sheila into even clearer focus, she isn't the woman this man wants to control and own. No slight to her, they are just not well matched, but can you see and understand this?
OK, I can rise above the urge to slap Jackie... just breath... why did Jim not handle you like this before?! Is that a serious question?! Yes, you are learning that this is something you actually enjoy, even crave, but even allowing for the gift of the custom bed, I simply cannot see Sheila ever wanting to give up so much control and authority, to give herself up and over like this! Having been quite effectively warned off expressing his desires, he isn't going to express them easily or quickly, as he has already told you!
And here we see the flip side of Jim, concerned, maybe outright scared of what is inside of him, and what happens when it gets unleashed!
Finally, she is getting it! That is a proper note to end this on, finally putting it more clearly, and in terms that Jim should fully grasp, that this was good and acceptable and he doesn't have to keep on worrying or apologising.
I am left thinking, not for the first time, that the stress and strain on a responsible dom is not always easy to understand. They have to control everything, including and especially their own desires and lusts, they don't get to let go and caught up in the moment, at least not always or normally, while their gift is to allow their partner to experience the very things they are denied... they need care to you know!
